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Entries for April, 2008
Huh
"Going out~~ lalala.."
"Halt! Who's allowing you??"
"You?"
"You're using a car! You're one of those people who make global warming!"
"Yeah yeah. I go now."
"What! Never listen to me?? Look at the time!"
"WTF? I come home cuz wanna use internet. If no hub then what to do? I'm bored, okay!"
"Are you having conflicts with your bf?"
"Huh?"
"Don't pretend! I know you wanna yell at him using YM cuz it saves your cellphone credit, right??"
"Omg, you got problems with your bf too! Look at those disasters on your face!"
"You have too!"
"Ok, I go."
"Wait! Don't leave when I'm talking."
"What you want? I might stop at McD or KFC."
"Oh. I want whipped potato and coleslaw, large ones. And if McD just get me umm.. wth? Are you bribing me??"
"Lol. Ok ok, I drive carefully."
"...."
| April 15, 2008 @ 09:13 PM | Add a Comment |
I really don't have time to ponder.
When I was washing dishes this morning, I was expecting I could be done in 5mins since I live alone, not many plates to clean. But 15mins had passed...
Sis Iffah grumbled to herself about not having enough time for anything she wants in life. Just gotta work work work, away from husband and kids. Without counting the years, she has been away from Indonesia for 8 years now..
I'm considered lucky. I've found the right choices at the right time. I've decided to move out and have my own life, just when it's the right thing to do. I didn't leave too early, neither too late. God didn't even make me wait too long for someone who's really meant for me.
My life is somewhat arranged, without me noticing it.
During lunch break today, I made myself comfortable in the store room where we place shoes. From floor to ceiling, all boxes of shoes. While eating my piece of bread, I figured the room as my life, and the boxes as the choices. And if I pick the wrong box (like the one very bottom), the whole stack of boxes will fall down, might even hit me, and make me injured somehow. Or permanent injury or scars, who knows.
So if I pick the wrong choice in life, my life will be slightly damaged. Or worse, others will look at me like a criminal. Well, that if I picked the box at very bottom, making the whole stack above to fall and hit another stack on its side, and going on like domino.. blah.
I don't want my life to go like that. >_<
Having a neighbour who recognizes me, really scares me. She said she knows my mother. She knows I was the girl who always cycled around the neighbourhood with another girl (Sabrina) 10 years ago. She even knows I don't use bicycle anymore since I have a car. Proves I'm a big girl now.
That's what I thought too when I first moved here. The boys I used to know, stealing my cats to play with, now already riding motorcycles around the town. The boys who threw fireworks on my house rooftop til my mom went emo and complained to their moms, now already building their lives somewhere. Living alone, working, studying, being somebody in life.
Giving life a meaning. That's how it's supposed to be said.
I'm very simple. I don't ask for anything hard to happen. I just.. wanna have someone to push at night when my babygirl or boy crying wan change diapers.
Well.. I better sleep since tomorrow I gonna need the energy. Astro installers will come too.
Currently feeling: thoughtful
| April 25, 2008 @ 09:42 PM | Add a Comment |
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